There are times when the words come so fast and so pure that I can’t slow down for a second to even read what I’m typing. I just go faster and faster until the sentences and paragraphs become nothing but a blur.[How do I know when to hit RETURN, anyway?]
As a new writer, you’d be right to ask, “That doesn’t happen all the time, does it?” Actually, it happens more than you think. Once you’ve started writing regularly, you’ll come up with little tricks, habits, or rituals (no animal sacrifice please). No matter how you do it, you’ll find that the more you write the easier it gets to slip into the mode of deep writing. That is, unless your inner critic starts sharpening their pencil.
Let me introduce you to my little friend (aka The Jerk Who Keeps Me From Writing).
Your inner critic (aka The Jerk Who Keeps You From Writing) is always there waiting for a chance to question your word choices, the motivation of your characters, the tinny dialogue, the plot, or even the entire concept that drove you to sit down and try to write the book in the first place. The inner critic knows you better than you know yourself, and they know exactly which buttons to press to stop the creative machinery.
I met my inner critic when I was in the second grade. This was 1978. I was sitting in the back of the class, wearing a superman t-shirt (a nice 70s shirt with a gold and silver superman logo, cause that’s how we did it back then). The sun was rising and I was day-dreaming about being somewhere, anywhere but there in the classroom. Suddenly, there was a voice in my head:
“What do you think you’re doing? Stop dreaming and pay attention.”
I didn’t really know what to say to that. I mean, I’d sure I’d heard voices in my head before but I knew that was because I was crazy. This was something different. This was something like a grown-up would say and it sounded like the voice of a grown-up.
I shook it off and went back to gazing out the window, but the voice was persistent:
“Who do you think you are? Everyone else is working. You should too.”
I looked around the classroom and sure enough everyone else was listening to the teacher (or appeared to be). I thought that maybe I ought to at least pretend that I was interested, but it was so beautiful outside. It was a day much like today in fact, sunny and just a little misty. The kind of morning that smelled wonderful and made you want to ride your bike block after block until you were so far from home that you thought perhaps you might live in the hollow of a tree rather than pedal all the way back.
The inner critic is wise to this sort of wandering mind. It knows to start slowly. It lets you run for awhile and then reels you back in a bit. It tires you by degrees so you don’t make a push and break the line.
“No one else is dreaming like you are.”
That’s the last thing I remember, but the critic didn’t go away. In fact, it became stronger over the years. It was a long time before I realized that I was the one giving it the power.
Once you realize that you are the one giving strength to your inner critic, you spend a lot of time trying to figure out how to silence it. This is also part of the critic’s game. It all comes back to getting you to focus on something other than the work you want to do. If you’re shy of your work, the critic wins. If you’re angry at the critic, the critic wins. If you do anything at all besides work, the critic wins.
In writing, I find that the critic likes to hide behind the period of a sentence. It’s waiting there, even now, even as I type this sentence. I wonder sometimes if that’s why my sentences grow so long, as if I’m so afraid the critic will stop me that I run on and on until there is nothing left to say and yet in desperation my creative heart grabs at another preposition and tosses it into the water so that I might float for awhile longer.
Yet, the period must come and then I must begin again.
If you’re going to write several thousand words a day, you need to figure out how to live with your critic. I’m not going to tell you to defeat it because I believe that’s impossible. It might go away for awhile but it’s going to come back some day when you least expect it.
In my case, I take a deep breath and push forward with the work at hand. If it isn’t flowing, I write about the fact that it isn’t flowing. I just type. Eventually, my hands find their way again and I slip back into the creative state. Occasionally, I get angry and just power through the voice, but I tend to shy away from that technique because it leads to burnout. I think it is much better to try and still the mind through a brief diversion than to search about for a hammer.
By the way, my inner critic was right about one thing – no one else is dreaming like I am. Only I dream the dreams that I have, just as you dream your dreams. As writers, it is our duty to turn those dreams into stories we can share.
Maybe my critic didn’t think I’d take the message and twist it around that way, but then again perhaps there was someone else in there who did.
I wrote about this experience because many of you in NaNoWriMo will be writing a novel for the first time, and you are going to come up against your inner critic. You should know that every writer struggles with this and there are no perfect answers.
When faced with your inner critic, you’ll have to work to find a way around, over, or even through. If nothing seems to work, try writing faster. That always helps me, or maybe it just makes me too busy to notice anymore. 🙂
Note: I just added the picture of my little friend. I originally wanted to post him, but for some reason I wimped out. Maybe my inner critic doesn’t like the light of day, or maybe, I have some taste after all. Regardless, in the spirit of true transparency, he’s up here now!
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18 thoughts on “Say Hello to Your Inner Critic and Write Faster”
I think it was at around second grade that I started to hear “the voice” as well.
I’m not kicking up dust with the NaNoWriMo, I am working on a book though. So I’m off to take your advice and write and if the critic makes my fingers stumble, I’ll write about it.
Hmmm, maybe all it wants is some attention. If I write about how much it is interfering with my work it will be happy and sit aside for a bit.
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@Rachel Be careful about feeding the critic too much. I have 2 million words in my journal. Most of it could be classified as love letters to my inner critic. 🙂
P.S. It was great to read your post yesterday! (folks, check it out in the link above)
Nice post! I’m in the middle of writing a memoir. I’m writing up to 4000 words a day. It’s draining yet beautiful.
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Hmmm, the inner critic– I never knew she had a name. I think I was in kindergarten when mine came to visit. I spent hours daydreaming, mostly because I couldn’t hear the teachers, but I sure heard that inner voice loud and clear.
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My inner critic is regularly bludgeoned into silence with whatever ponderous phrase I’m choosing to write at that particular moment. It’s just when I’m done, when I’ve pushed away from the keyboard and refilled my water glass and reviewed in my head the things I’ve written that she rises up over my shoulder and starts yammering. I haven’t figured out what to do about her yet. She forces me to cut out a lot of material, things that by the next day I wish I hadn’t touched. Are we forever cursed, forced to second-guess our creative selves? Sometimes I wish I’d gone into accounting.
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I’m currently struggling against my inner critic over the novel I’m working on. I won last night, but it was the first victory in a while. It’s funny that in my latest blog post I was trying to identify what made it so difficult for me to get those initial words on the page, and you captured it so well with this post.
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@Maria Wow! That’s a lot of nuts! 😉 I know what you mean about being draining. That kind of output is almost mystical in the way it pulls away what ails you. Be careful of burnout though.
@Karen My 5th grade teacher is still my favorite, but I don’t remember a thing she said. All I remember is that I got to sit in the hall every afternoon and work on a book. 🙂
@Crystal I think it’s a life long struggle, but maybe a bit like a marriage. You learn to grow together over time. Of course, those don’t always work out so well either. 0_o
@Kameron Thanks for the kind words and congrats on winning the latest round with your inner critic! 🙂 By the title of your recent post (and I’m going over to read it after this comment), you’re having the same conversations with your critic that I do.
@Jamie Have you ever read Natalie Goldberg’s Writing Down the Bones? There’s some good stuff in there about confronting your critic.
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Nice post and you make some great points. And I was right there with you in that classroom daydreaming instead of paying attention. Ironically, the thing that turns off my critic’s voice is writing by hand. Something about holding a pen and pressing it to paper chases all the uglies away. I write that way until the stream is there and then pick it up on the keyboard and it usually just flows on. Don’t know why it works that way for me but it does.
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@Maria I have and there is a lady here in town who does writing seminars using Natalie’s “system”. Haven’t gone to one but I hear she’s good. My favorite book on this topic is still Courage to Write by Ralph Keyes.
@writerchick Thanks! I have sort of the same experience with pen in hand. Wrote my first novel longhand in fact. The thing is that I usually end up doing more drawing than writing when I scribble. 🙂
Inner critic; I wish there were just one. Rather mine more closely resembles Anne Lamott’s committee. So I often use her tool of the mice and the jar. Smacks of “Pinky and the Brain” don’t you think?
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@Deb Multiple inner critics! I forgot all about Anne Lamott’s mice and jar routine, but it’s good. I wish my inner critic was as funny as Pinky and the Brain. It’s a little more like being stuck with Dracula and Renfield.
I hadn’t thought of the funny part I was referring to the “world domination” obsession. It’s me or the mice; but maybe I’m just a mouse.
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@Deb You are most certainly not a mouse, but I do think you ought to pin up the phrase It’s me or the mice on your board. That’s a good one.